The Christmas Gift

Yesterday my family was given the most wonderful Christmas gift, my nephew was born. Philip Payton was born about 3:10pm and weighted 7 pounds 12 ounce and is 21 inches long. He is a very healthy little boy and was are so proud to have him in our family. My brother never really believed that he would ever have a son but God does work his miracles and he has a boy! We have all been so blessed this year, it is hard to put into words the feelings. I found Jeff and was married in November, Jennifer and Jeff had Philip in December but along the way we lost Barney. The emotional roller coaster we have been on this year is one that I could never explain but I know that I wouldn't change the ride for anything....

A New Life

It has been a while since my last post, so while I have a few minutes I thought I would write. Marriage is so different and wonderful. I am so blessed to get to spend everyday with my best friend. My step-sister Terra told me once "marriage is just great, you get to come home to your best friend"...that is so true. I feel that way. It has been a big adjustment as well, Jeff and I are older and have been on our own longer so we are both set in our ways. But he and I laugh a lot and have not had any problems learning from each other. We both have made a point of talking and keeping the lines of communication open....I need to remember he is my best friend and more than one person has told me it is that "friendship" that will get me through some rough times.

We have been working on our house a lot. It looks great, Jeff has been a big help and I know he isn't excited about having to spend all his free time working but it is coming along great! We love it! In fact, we are hosting my dad's family Christmas this year so that will be great and we are looking forward to it.

Our Big Day!

Well our big day finally arrived...November 8, 2008. Jeff and I were married in a wonderful ceremony with all our family and friends there. It took place at the Methodist Church with the reception at April Sound. We could not have asked for a better day. It all started with going with my girls to get hair and makeup done. That was a blast, we just hung out, ate and drank mimosas..yum! From there we girls headed to the church...got dressed and the fun begin. I had such a wonderful wedding, it was everything I dreamed of. I only wish that my grandmother, grandfather, Barney and Uncle had lived to see it, but you know I know they were there. That room was so filled with love and happiness that I know without a doubt that those who loved us where there. I also know how blessed I am to have a wonderful man and new family in my life, they are incredible and I am truly blessed.

Getting Closer

This past week saw the efforts of a bunch of people coming together....Mom has been a life saver. Running errands all over town, all day long, asking the lists of questions I have made for different people. She has said too that the post office won't know what to do without us buying stamps. I don't know what I would do without her. Also, Debra came over Friday night and helped put the baskets together for the hotel guests and we worked on the programs. Both were a great help.

Also, this week my school held a shower for me. It was so nice, gifts, cake, sodas, etc. We got a lot of wonderful things and Jeff and I become more amazed everyday at the gifts and the amount of generosity people have, it is wonderful! Today, Mom and I also picked up my bridal portrait...which I love! We took it to be framed and matted. It looks beautiful, we were both so pleased. With each day we are getting closer, I can't believe that in one week I will be married! Jeff and I are so excited, we can't wait for this part of our life to begin....

Remembering...

This weekend is the annual Fall Festival at the church my brother and his family go to. I was thinking back to this time last year and how much life has changed. That weekend, my mom and step-father Barney drove over to spend the day with us and enjoy the wonderful weather. WOW, what a difference a year makes. NEVER in my life if you would have told me that day, eating a hot dog and watching Grace play would Barney that a year later he would be gone. It is a loss that my family feels everyday. How short we had him and how long he will remain with us is amazing in itself. He came into our lives to fast and just that fast he was gone again. As I sit here in a house my mother never imagined owning, living in Conroe again, and not having him with her, I am stunned at how short, amazing, lonely, wonderful and miraculous life can be....

Also, I remember that a year ago I didn't even know Jeff, my soon to be husband. I was dating someone else in fact and praying to understand why that relationship wasn't what I dreamed it should be. I was trying to hard to make it something it wasn't, spending to much time worrying, crying, and hoping things would change. They did...we broke up. After that happened and I moped around for a while, I decided to give online dating a try again and there he was, my prince.

I guess this weekend is I have been doing a lot of thinking...and have come to a conclusion that isn't shocking to me at all. Life is about Change...sometime that change is good, great, sad or horrible but change it is. It is going to happen and we must ride the ride....

Final Things....

Today is the two week mark, we are two weeks away from the wedding. We got the marriage license yesterday and Jeff's ring today. He picked out one that was titanium and looks really good on his hand. From there is was off to buy a suit and new pair of slacks. He needed one, I guess. Every guy should at least one suit, or so I tried to tell him. He looked so handsome and he liked the way he looked as well. We got more gifts in the mail today and finished sending off the last of the "after wedding" brunch mom is having at her house. She said, she thinks the post office won't know what to do without us and all our mail outs. I said true, but then comes the thank you notes for wedding presents. Tonight is Jeff's bachelor party. His friends and family are getting together in Huntsville to celebrate. I am so glad that my dad is going too. Don't know how bad he is looking forward to it but he is anyway, which is good for him to do.

Bachelorette Party

GIRLS NIGHT OUT!!! On October 18th, 10 of my best friends and family hit the road for Houston and girls night out. We all met over at my mom's house and then headed to Houston. My cousin, Karen had already found us a great Mexican food place and then it was off to Howl at the Moon. That is a great place to go, home of the dueling pianos. We ate, drank, danced and laughed so much I was exhausted afterwards. It was so much fun and I am so lucky to have a great group of family and friends.

Couples Shower

WOW, what a weekend...on Saturday, Oct 11th Jeff and I had our couples shower at Buca di Peppo on the Woodlands. It was great. It was hosted by Jane/Jim, Mary/Kim, Caroll/Tom and Karl/Joy, they are all my aunts and uncles. It was a great time and we had so much fun. All of Jeff's family was there and most of mine. The food was great and we played two games. One famous couples and another "project runway" style brides show. Each group had to make up a person as a bride using newspaper, toilet paper and tape. IT WAS HYSTERICAL! Jeff and I loved it...seeing his friend Cody dressed as a woman and then there was my dad! He was a riot, very out of character for him. Both he and Jennifer's dad were dressed up and as people were saying the things they do for their daughters! It was great. Viola, Macy and Nancy were wonderful as well. It was great to see what people can do in a short time...to funny! The night was great and so much fun. Jeff and I loved it and feel so blessed to have all these wonderful people in our lives. All the more reason after the weekend of showers to be excited about the reception, it will be so much fun!

Dessert Shower

Well thanks to Hurricane Ike, my first bridal shower had to be postponed. It was a dessert and wine shower. I was disappointed to say the least but what you going to do, no lights..no water, no shower! Jennifer, Terra and Stella had wanted to host a shower for me so on, October 10 the rescheduled shower took place. IT WAS GREAT!!! We all went to Jeff and Jennifer house, which was decorated beautifully. They had so many wonderful desserts and wines to choose from. I was so happy to see all my friends and family there. Even my Aunt Caroll from Las Vegas was able to come, she wouldn't have before, so that was one positive from Ike. I got so many wonderful things, Jeff and I don't even know how to say thank you enough...it is a very humbling experience to see all the packages and know they came from people you know who care so much. Some of my family got to meet Jeff's mom and Aunt for the first time and it was an instant laugh fest. It was a great time had by all, especially me the bride. I was so honored to have a wonderful sister like Jennifer who would go to all that trouble, she is the best.

Bridal Pictures

On Saturday, Sept 20th I was supposed to have the first of my two wedding showers. Well thanks to Hurricane Ike that was had to be changed to Oct 10th. I was disappointed I will say but what can you do, we had no power. Can't have a bridal shower in the dark...no fun there. So that big event is coming up and now because of the new date, several like Caroll are coming that would not have been able to before so that is one positive and I can not wait!

On Saturday, Sept. 27th Mom, Mary, Mimi and I ventured to Rice University to take my bridal portraits. To say I was a little nervous is an understatement. I wanted everything to be perfect (I am a bit of nut about that stuff, working on it though). I had spent the morning getting my hair and makeup done and was really happy with the turn out. As Carla (hairdresser) and I said..."this will go in the hairdo hall of fame." I loved it...and then it was off to Rice.

We stopped first and got a smaller version of my bouquet that I had ordered, LOVED IT. Then it was to the area parking lot to change into my dress, yes that is right. I changed into my wedding dress and such in the parking lot of the university. Dana, the photographer and I were off with our helpers. Thank goodness Mary and Mom were there. I needed a lot of help, with my dress, flower, veil, etc. Looked like I was famous....but I think we got some great shots. I have always loved that school and all the wonderful architecture. It was also so special to share that day with my mom, Mary and my grandmother. It made the day even more wonderful! Now, I just have to sit and wait to see them...I AM DYING!

Where did the time go?

It has been so long since my last post...where do I begin. Well,I guess I need to begin at the end. The end of the last post that is...Well September, what a month.

The move went great, had few moments of WHAT AM I DOING, WHERE IS ALL THIS STUFF GOING! Slowly but surely, it is going to all be alright. I have had days were I have thought it will never happen, I will never get it all done, never get it all moved into place, never be settled but I know it will. I know that it is only stuff and I will be able to wade through it sooner or later. It is really amazing how the little things in life make you so happy. For example, working my way through the boxes and finding the front door! Jeff just laughed at me but I was so proud...WE HAVE A DOOR, I CAN SEE IT BEHIND ALL THE BOXES! I guess this is something all couples go through but I think for Jeff and I it is a little different because we are older, we both have more stuff. Tons of stuff and making it all come together (the deer heads) is our greatest challenge and biggest source of laughter.

The month was going along fine until a storm named Ike showed up. At first they told us, he was going farther south, no worries for us. Well he changed his mind and headed right for Houston and I-45. Just like they said he would, that storm right up the freeway through Conroe. We were out of school for a week, without power for about 6 days (felt much longer than that, but we made it through. Had a few limbs down in the yard thank goodness. I know many people that lost a lot more than we did. I will say that the good thing about the whole experience was learning to relay on each other so much more again. We spent time as a family outside, cooking on the grill, eating together, carrying water, etc. Just being together without any other outside distractions and that was nice. But let me say..as much as I loved it, this girl loves her air conditioner too!

After Ike, it was back to trying to return to normal. That hasn't been easy for some. I see that at school all day, everyday...but we are going to be fine and taking it one day at a time.

Coming Home Again

This past weekend I turned over a new leaf in my life. I moved out of my apartment and into my mom's house. Jeff and I had decided that I would move my stuff to his house and then I would move in in November. I didn't want to live with him before we are married mainly out of respect for my parents. They both don't like the idea and have given me so much in my life, what is waiting three months! Also, I said "I am not stupid, they are writing the checks...not going to make them mad!" ahhahaha

Well the move went fine, thank goodness for the movers. I got here and unpacked what little I brought to Mom's house. It is kind of strange and wonderful being back here at the sametime. Eventhough it is a new house for both she and I, it is still living with my mom and being with her things. I don't think it matters how old you are or where they live there will always be apart of your home, the place your parents live. I know it will be good for both of us to be living together, if we don't kill each other first (kidding of course). There is something about beginning to start a new phase in life and coming home before you do, helps to keep you grounded I think.

Pieces of the puzzle

Friday, August 29th saw the arrival of our invitations. I was so happy to see them and think they are just what we wanted. I love them! They are just the right shape, color, and wording. They are very personal for my family and I was happy to see them. Also, we got our napkins in as well. They are great! Later that evening Mom, Jeff and I ventured to Fannin Flowers again. This time we went to look at a wedding they were working on that was using some of the same colors. They had told us a couple of weeks ago to come back then and I am so glad that we did. The flowers were AMAZING! I loved all of them, I can't wait to see the flowers and how they all look. We also ordered several other things and they will all be arriving the morning of the wedding and I know they will add a very special touch to the wedding. As I told Mom and Jeff that night, it is like putting one big puzzle together and I can't wait to see all the pieces.

Invitations and Family

Well FINALLY, I got the invitations ordered. Mom and I sat down tonight and worked on them. Jeff had already looked and voiced his opinion on what he liked and disliked so I was glad to have that to go on too. Mom was great to chat with and bounce ideas off of. She was also helping me with the wording, since my parents are divorced and since we lost Barney, the wording can be tricky. But I am very happy to say "we got it" and I think everyone will be happy with the outcome.

I started back to work this week, where did the summer go is the question we all have. It went by so fast and I can't believe in a couple of months I will be Mrs. Rose! I am so excited! I am also so thankful that we got as much done as we did during the summer. I can't imagine having to still do all that work and try to teach at the same time.

I found out this week too that my Aunt Jan, dad's sister in Midland, is going to be making the flower girl basket for Grace to carry. I am so glad she is doing this, she is really talented and I know it will look great. I am so grateful to have such a wonderful and supportive family. I think our wedding will be very special, others might not know all the personal touches we have done, but we will. I feel that with all the wonderful help from family and friends, our wedding will certainly be everything we had hoped for.

Flowers and More Flowers

Today, Mom, Debbie (her good friend) and I ventured into Houston to see what kind of flowers were available for the corsages, boutonnieres, and the bouquets. Well, we were shocked! We went to Fannin Flowers, and if you ever need ANY flower that is your place. It was amazing, we loved it. I knew that I wanted fall colors and roses. Diane (florist) had told me how many of each to get. So armed with the amounts, we set off to pick the colors. BOY, was I wrong to think it would be pretty easy to do. I loved them ALL and wanted them all. We were able to decide on some gorgeous flowers, greenery, and other arrangements for the wedding. I hope the girls and others will love the flowers as much as I did, the colors are going to be great. They are making an arrangement for us that promises to be wonderful looking. It is just another wonderful step in the process and one that makes me even more excited about the upcoming events...I can't wait to see it all come together!

Meetings and Meetings...

WOW, what a week. The week started out with a baby shower for my step-sister Terra on Sunday. She is having a little girl in October. This is her first and we are so excited for her.

Then Tuesday Jeff and I went to the church to meet with the minister and the music director to coordinate the wedding ceremony. I was nervous to figure out what we were going to have them play before, during and after the ceremony. Music is such a huge part of my life and Jeff's too, so we wanted a variety of stuff to be played. The music director is amazing, she can play anything and really helped us with the type of songs we were looking for. After about thirty to forty-five minutes and a bunch of wonderful songs, Jeff and I got the music picked out for the ceremony and we love it. Then it was off to meet with the minister. He is really great, a humble man who says that nobody is there to hear him speak, so his words will be short...can you believe that a minister who doesn't want to give a long sermon at the ceremony, AMEN! He spoke with us about the "vision" we saw for the ceremony, how we wanted things to be worded and to let us know that this is about us. He said that he is there to help us, but this is our commitment with God and to each other, so it should be what we want...not anyone else. We agreed. We are having an amazing song that will be sung by Sarah and a very unique reading done by Laura. The minister thought they were great and approved of them both. Jeff and I were very happy to have that hurdle crossed off our list.

They are Done!

The flowers, oh boy the flowers. Well I have been on the search for the flowers at the right price now for little over a month. I have bought all they have at one store and today I am heading to another to get the rest. It is a chore but I love it really. They arrangements are going to look so beautiful and I can't wait for everyone to see them. Diane, our florist, is amazing with silk flowers. As I have said before they weren't my first choice but she does/did a great job with the example she showed me that I am not worried at all. It is the buying them all that has me running in circles.

Saturday another hurdle was crossed as well. I put my shoes into be dyed (don't ask me how I forgot that one already) and my bridesmaid finished ordering their dresses! I am so glad....Pam, Macy, and Debra, all got theirs ordered yesterday and that completed my group! I know they are going to look amazing in their dresses and I can't thank them enough for being in the wedding. They are all so special to Jeff and I each in a very different way, we can't imagine not having them with us.

Dress Fitting

Thursday my mom and I went down to David's Bridal to have my first dress fitting. At first I thought, "what besides a bustle could they possibility need to do?" Well boy was I wrong. Unfortunately, the dress still fits (I wished it was to big but it could certainly be the other way) but the seamstress at Davids are WONDERFUL! First they helped me with a decision I needed to make regarding the sleeves. Also, they created a beautiful bustle on the dress and added some special touches that I had not even thought of. As I stood there in my dress, I fell in love with it even more. I knew from the minute I saw it I loved it but as I stood there and watched her work her magic, the dress became even more me and I loved it! I can't wait to wear it for everyone and especially for Jeff.

As Mom and I shared that special moment I looked over and saw her with tears in her eyes. I thought, oh we are in trouble if crying already. Kidding of course but she is happy for me and said she was thinking of that day. She knows like we all do that day will be one of extreme emotions. Those being of happiness and love and of loss. We will all be thinking of those who won't be there to see it. I guess that is what weddings do for us all. They make us realize what a wonderful event they are and help us to remember those we lost. I know that day though, that my grandmother (Mawm), my grandfather (Gramps), my uncle (Walt) and my step-father (Barney) will all be there in that church with us and walking me down the aisle. Because I believe that those people are with me everyday, so where else would they be on that most special of days, where all their family is gathered.

Our First Vacation!

On July 26, Jeff and I left for our first vacation together. We went to my "family" reunion in Georgia. I say family that way because they are family biologically but in my heart they all are so special to me. Over 35 of us came from all over the U.S. to Tybee Island, GA. We stayed a week and had a great time. I was nervous about Jeff going I will admit. I was afraid at first that something would happen and he would not be able to go, then I was nervous about how he would like everyone and they him. Well I should have known my worries were for nothing. I know he loved everyone and I felt like they loved him too. He is just that type of guy, easy going, never meets a stranger and is just him. I love that about him, his easy goingness (if that is even a word). I told Jeff that I want this to be the first of many vacations we take and he agreed. I think it is so important for people to go out and experience new places, we had a great time during that week and can't wait to see them all again at the wedding!

Pictures, Dress, and Songs!

Well it has been a while since my last post. Since then Jeff and I did more on the house, got our engagement pictures back and went on vacation together with my family. Our engagement pictures came out great. There are some that are our favorites and some I could do without. I guess that is normal, hard to take that many pictures and love them all. We got a couple shots that are so good that we are having a hard time choosing. That is a good thing right?

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Things are moving right along. I was supposed to go for my first dress fitting today (Aug. 5th) but a tropical storm has made its way to Texas and I think I will just sit this one out at home. Dress fitting can wait for another day. We have a meeting with the church on Tuesday, so that is exciting to finally get to talk about the ceremony with the minister. Also, my friend and bridesmaid Sarah agreed to sing in the wedding! We are both so honored that she said "yes". She has a beautiful voice and now picking just the right song for her will be a challenge. I want her to sing them all!

Engagement Pictures

Well today was the day, engagement pictures. Jeff and I had decided to go to Sam Houston Park in Downtown Houston to take our pictures. With the photographers help, we also decided to wear black and denim. We arrived at 7:30am and started taking pictures right away.

We walked all around the park and took pictures for about an hour to hour and half. It was starting to get very hot, Houston in July. I loved the old homes, the water, and the gazebo they have there. She made sure she captured us many different ways, poses, and facial expressions. I hope there are some in the group that are great. Jeff isn't much for having his picture taken but I thought today he looked very handsome in his black and with his cowboy hat on too.

I really do like our photographer, she is very sweet and very good. Her company is named Big Oak Photography out of Montgomery. The link is in my favorite links secion on the side. She has an eye for the pictures and tried to get lots of different angles and things in the background. We have about two weeks until they are done, I can't wait!

Dresses, Furniture, and Jewerly!

Jeff is off this weekend and poor thing, I am seem to run him ragged every time he is off. The sweet guy that he is, he very seldom ever says anything about not wanting to go somewhere or do something. He is a real trouper...

This Saturday started off with us picking up Mimi and going to David's Bridal to bridesmaids dresses. We met my cousin, Karen, Paige and Aunt Anne there. Karen was picking out and getting her dress and shoes for the wedding. She seemed to like the dress I had picked and we were able to get it ordered and shoes ready to be dyed so they will all be ready to pickup later in August. I really enjoyed having them there with us, always fun to have the family experience all the fun that comes along with planning a wedding. Mimi also volunteered to buy my veil for me. That was a huge surprise and a wonderful gift from her. Aunt Anne was a big help in getting my veiled picked out and making sure it was the right color. THANKS!

From there, Jeff and I went to Gallery Furniture. We had intended on buying a bookshelf and some kind of entertainment center. Well, that isn't exactly what we came out with. Instead, we walked out of there having purchased a new couch, love seat and over sized chair and ottoman. It is a chocolate, suede color fabric. We both really liked it and I know it will be great in the new living room. The furniture is being delivered on Friday, so I can't wait to see it in our new house.

Finally, our last stop of the day was at Zales. Jeff had wanted me to get something for my birthday there. Of course, me and jewelry...what a difficult thing. I found a cross that I just loved. It is a perfect combination of yellow and white gold, just like the bracelet he gave me on our first date. It also has some very beautiful diamonds in it, can you tell I LOVE IT!!!

We rounded off the night by going to dinner with Pam and Brandon...it was great to meet them and just unwind. I know Jeff was tired but he did great and we survived another day of running around and taking the steps towards starting our life together.

Our Wonderful Gifts

As we have gone through the planning of the wedding, Jeff and I have gotten some wonderful gifts already. My dad and Cindi for an engagement present gave us a margarita machine, okay do they know me or what. I can't wait to open that thing up and get it going, I have been so tempted already but trying to wait. Also, Mom and Barney bought our honeymoon for us, a cruise. For my birthday I got gift cards to Kirkland's (thanks Terra and Casey), Target card and memory keepsake book (thanks Mom), candle holder and wall plaque for our new house (thanks Bill, Genevieve, and Nedra), to lots of other thoughtful things. All the gifts have been so sweet. This past week, Jeff and I received a wonderful wedding present as well. His aunt Nedra, had already bought our gift and could not wait to give it to us. We were so surprised and excited when his dad opened the garage up and showed us the brand new grill we had registered for. WE LOVE IT! She just thought it was something we could use right away and "why wait till November" she said. I can't wait to try it out myself, seems easy enough. Jeff LOVES to grill and he was happy to have gotten it, I know he can't wait to use it. We both were very touched by the gift and her generosity, it means a lot both of us. We are both so blessed to have a family that loves us, supports us, and is so happy for us. That in itself is the really blessing of our marriage...

House Changes Part 2

Before

Yesterday and today Jeff and I have been working on our dining room. We knew from the beginning that we wanted to paint it and make it look different but we weren't exactly sure how to do it. Well after deciding that the white walls had to go, we decided to make them red. I know RED but it turned out great. Jeff found this great red color, almost a brick red and we went with that and khaki. Also, we decided to install a chair rail around the room and replace the blinds. We painted the chair rail a little darker tan color and the blinds are brown. All in all, we are very HAPPY with the room. He and I said today, this room looks great! It was a long, tiring process, but worth the effort.

After

Dresses

Sunday, July 13th saw Jennifer, Mom and I going shopping for bridesmaids dresses. I had picked out several styles, with Debra's help, and then showed them to Jennifer. We all thought that this one certain style was great. It can be called a Roman style dress, it will be brown and this all the detail I am giving...have to wait and see. I think that once all the girls try it on, see themselves in it, they will love it too. We have decided to add another bridesmaid and groomsman to the wedding as well. That brings our total to 7 each! Jeff was really torn over not having a certain friend in the wedding, so we made that decision. His friend will be in the wedding, I added Macy (his niece) as a Jr. bridesmaid and we made his nephew Ross, a third usher. We needed another usher and I think Ross will be really good. It is hard sometimes to know where to stop or what to have people to do. We don't want to hurt any one's feelings but at the same time, we can't 20 people up there for each of us. SO I think who we have will be great....Jennifer, Shannon, Karen, Pam, Debra, Sarah, Macy and Grace (flower girl, we hope) for me. I have two great friends in my house party, Brandy and Dee. It is now getting down to planning the little details, this is the fun part. All and all I am having a blast, it is great to be planning a wedding to your prince charming.

Seeing Love

For those of you who know my families recent turn of events, you will know that my mom lost her husband just about two months ago. That is hard for me to believe Barney has been gone that long already. For those of you who knew him, you knew what a kind, generous, loving man he was. He gave and gave and gave until he had no more to give and God called him home. As I watch my mother, who had finally found her love after all these years, go through the VERY difficult process of starting life without him, I am amazed. She has an amazing strength, courage, and determination. I know some of it comes from the madder she gets the more determined she gets but I also believe that I am watching someone fight for the love of her life. I know they were only married 14 months, as it has been pointed out to her and us all recently, but it that 14 months we were all blessed with seeing a wonderful love. There are those in his own family that knew him much longer and missed out on that love. They never stopped thinking of themselves and what "they" wanted long enough to appreciate what they had. I am so grateful to have been able to see that love for myself.

Jeff and I have talked a lot about my mom, what she has been through, and what has happened since. We both hope as we grow older we will have many, many years together but we also know that life about expecting the unexpected. Loving someone doesn't start or end on a certain day, it is forever and sometimes starts in an instant. Love can be tested, or easy, or leave this earth all to soon. But I believe it never leaves you and I only hope that someday my children will be able to say they saw love and know what a wonderful feeling it is.....

The Church...The Church

Today, Mom, Mimi and I ventured to the first of several meetings (I am sure of) with the church wedding coordinators. They are both very sweet, easy to work with, and they know their stuff. They gave us some great suggestions, told us what we could and could not do and helped us to establish a time for the rehearsal to start. I had been trying to decide on a good time and what I should tell the bridal party, so with their help I now know. The rehearsal will start at 5:30pm, a little bit early but that does give us time if people are running late and gives us plenty of time for the rehearsal. We have a large wedding party, of 7 attendants each and two ushers, so making sure everyone is there on time and knows what they are doing the next day is going to be a funny thing to watch. We counted off the number of pew decorations we will need, discussed candle options, and guest book table placement. We also decided who was going to sit where, saw where Jeff and I will be "kept" the day of the wedding and the staging room for our parents. Overall it was a great big hello to First Methodist as far as a wedding is concerned.

My mom has gone to that church for years, they have been so good to her. I can tell when she walks in the doors it feels like she is coming home. That is what I think a church really should be, a place where you feel welcome as soon as you are there. I so glad to be getting married there, it has a many happy memories for my family.

The more and more planning I do, the more anxious I am becoming. I can almost see it in my head and I am dying for it to all come together. Jeff and I also want the wedding to have a very personal, family touch. Our families are a huge part of our lives and I think throughout the wedding that will be felt. That is a goal of ours and I think we are doing a great job of seeing that come true.

Bridesmaids on the Loose!

What a day!!! Well today Debra, one of my bridesmaids, joined me for a day of planning. I had heard from some people that Men's Wearhouse was a great place and a cheaper place to go for the tuxedo's. We already have them reserved at Al's but I wanted to check it out. Well they were right, Debra and I ventured into the store and about an hour later we came out with a new tux order. First they were really professional, very knowledgeable, and the quality was much better for the price. I made sure that I followed the selections that Jeff had made this past weekend. I also managed to save the guys about $20.00 each, so I was really glad about that. I know it isn't a ton of money but 20 is 20 as far as I am concerned. Also, I was glad that the quality of tux was better and the new one looks much more formal and for a lesser price.

Then it was off to dress shopping. I hadn't looked at the bridesmaid dresses at all in person, just online. Debra graciously volunteered to try on the dresses for me. We went to Alfred Angelo...not impressed at all. The whole experience wasn't great and so after about thirty minutes we left. Then it was on to David's Bridal. This is were I got my dress and they had a great selection. We were there for about an hour and a half. She tried on dress after dress. Separates, mermaid skirts, full skirts, halter tops, cap sleeves, etc. Finally we picked about three separate outfits and two dresses. I had always originally planned on going with separates but after seeing those dresses, I am thinking that might be the way to go. The dress looked good on her and I think it will look great on everyone else.

We have finally started the final project of the wedding, the bridesmaids dresses. Once we get that done, all the major stuff will be done and we can concentrate on the little details and getting ready for our vacation to Georgia.

Flowers and Music

Today Mom and I began the task of the flowers. We met over at Diane Covey's house, who is going to be doing our flowers, we discussed, discussed and discussed some more about what I wanted to do for the flowers. She told us what went with what, what flowers were good to use and how many we would need. We have chosen all fall colors to go with, so Diane is going to let her imagination run wild. She is a wonderful friend of my mothers and a wonderful florist. I know she will do an absolutely beautiful job.

Also, today we booked a DJ! After looking for about two weeks, everyone being booked, we have finally gotten a DJ and I think he will be just great. He is going to play a variety of music and asked if there will be any problem getting people up to dance. I had to laugh...my family...hahaha. Getting some of them to sit down will be a problem. It is really beginning to come together. That was the last major hurtle to overcome and I am so relieved!

I am getting more and more anxious to see the final product. It is like trying to piece a puzzle together and wishing you could see the whole thing. One thing that I know or have relearned through all of this, it is the importance of family. Today, I will admit the cost of things started to really get to me, I wonder why does everything have to cost so much? My mom, the amazing pillar of my life, told me today and it does not matter, she wants me to have the wedding of my dreams. That is what I mean, family, they are with you in the worst of times and in the best of times. I have been very blessed to have one that has been with me every step of the way.....

Let Them Eat Cake!

Today started off with Jeff, Mom, Jennifer and I going to a cake tasting. We had decided to go to Bakery and Cakes here in Conroe. Through the years my family has gotten several cakes there for different occasions and always been very happy. We sampled the different cakes, discussed various shapes and designs. We finally settled on something that is just perfect for the wedding cake. I love it and think it will be just beautiful. Jeff, had his own idea about the groom's cake. He described his "vision" to the bakers and they came up with a great design that I think everyone will love. From there we ran more errands and Jeff and I went to Al's Formal Wear to decide on the tuxedo's for the guys. Who knew there were so many choices on vests, jackets, ties, shoes, shirts, and color patterns. But I think what we picked out will be just beautiful...all the guys will look great.

We are really starting to close in on the big things as far as planning goes. That is what I wanted to do, try and get as much of it done this summer before school starts. Now, if we could just find a DJ and get the bridesmaids something to wear we would be in great shape. I am on the trail of a DJ and have a dress style in mind so that is part of the battle...just need to find the time to go and look. But so far, I will say this has been a great wedding to plan. I am so blessed to have so many people who are such a great help. I couldn't do it with them!

Our First "Domestic" Purchase

Before

Today, June 30th saw Jeff and I re-doing our kitchen. The house is painted all the same color or shall I say, all in the same color family, that being white. Lucky for us we are able to change that, either painting, new floors, lights, etc. So Jeff and I decided that we would paint the kitchen, put up a new curtain and make our first "domestic" purchase...a stove. We painted the room a light khaki color and left the cabinets cream color. I found a really cute shade/curtain at Target. I am not a fan of those "kitchen curtains" so this one worked out just perfect. It is red, cream and khaki stripe. Jeff loved it and loved how the kitchen turned out. Then it was off to Home Depot to look for a stove. He didn't have one and since we both love to cook, we knew that wasn't something we could live without. (Unlike Carrie on Sex-and-the-City, I do not keep sweaters in my oven...I cook in it.) After looking, comparing, and finally saying "who cares" we chose one. I had no idea there were so many to pick from, goodness. It is going to be delivered on July 3rd....we are so excited. I know, how can anyone get excited over an oven, but Jeff says that he first time he cooks on it will be to make me dinner...isn't that sweet. So the next room to tackle is the living room/dining room. Those rooms are really big and have a lot of great space. We think we are just going to paint and get some curtains up..amazing what just those two things can do to a room. Also, in the works is some work done to the outside, he and I both have a plan that will help the outside of the house. We are lucky in that we have a big yard and we can plant anything in the flower beds...so it is beginning to start looking and feeling like our home.

After

Our Home

For those of you who don't know, once we are married Jeff and I will be living in his house. He lives in what is called a "state house". Since he works for TDC and is a Lt., he has the opportunity to live in a house that the state owns and pays for, hence the name, state house. These homes were built in the 1950's. They are red brick, two bedroom, a duplex and the most important thing, free. I will admit at first I was against living there, mainly because the unit is so close. Jeff and I had several conversations over the issue. I explained my position and he explained his. He understood where I was coming from and listened my concerns, I listened to his. Guess I learned a valuable lesson, I learned that we are in this together. We have to learn to listen to each other and go from there.

Well we are going to be living in his place and we are going to be adding our touch to each room. Today, I went to Home Depot and bought the paint for the kitchen. We are going with a light khaki color on the walls, leaving the cabinets the off white color they are, and I found a really cute curtain for the window. I think that will look great once we get it all finished. I can't wait to go up there and start painting. I know with each thing we do it will make the place more ours, it will make it our home.

Changes

This morning I took another step towards getting married. I gave my apartment complex my 60 day notice that I will be moving out come August 30. Next question, where am I living until November 8th? Well who knows...but I will find something. The rent was going up and there was a fee of $150.00 extra, so I just couldn't see paying $900.00 to live here, YIKES! Some have said, "just live with Jeff" and maybe I should but I am still a bit of an old fashioned girl and that just doesn't sound right to me. Plus, I don't think (or I know rather) that my parents (aka check writers) would not like that idea. Mom really hopes that she has a place up here by then and we do too for her sake, if so, "Hi mom, I am back!"

Also, this morning I worked out again. I started working out about two weeks ago or so. Lets just say, it ain't pretty. But I do always feel better, once I stop sweating and catch my breath. I am trying to just make sure I look better in my dress and for the big event. Jeff has been so supportive and wonderful. He is always telling me, "you don't need to loose weight, I love you the way you are", those are all wonderful to hear. It reminds me of a story my grandma (Mimi) told me. She said my grandpa (Papaw..Loyal) told her once that he didn't care if she got so big she had to ride in the back seat and he was in the front seat of the car, he would always love her. That is how Jeff is and I know that I am truly blessed. But for me, it is more about getting into shape or trying to. I just want to tone up a bit (really a lot but gotta be realistic here) so that is why I am giving it a try. Today, my arms were killing me and I just kept telling myself my new mantra....."You do not want to look like a giant marshmallow, keep going!" We shall see if it pays off but for now, my payoff is I do feel better and have more energy....

We Have A Rehearsal

Today Mom, Grace and I went out to Kirby's Lone Star Bar-B-Que in Montgomery. If you haven't been there and live in the area, go! The place is great. Jeff and I have eaten there before and we both love the atmosphere. It is very relaxed, everything is done in a Texas theme, and the best part, the food is great. We decided that was just the type of place we would love to have for our rehearsal dinner. We have a large wedding party and a few out of town guests and this would be a wonderful place for them all to get to know one another before the big event. They might be moving locations but the new place promises to be just as great, either way it will be a great night. I am getting more and more excited as we continue the planning. The whole weekend will be a dream come true!

Planning and more planning

The past day or two have seen us planning, planning and more planning. I was able to schedule an appointment with a local baker for a cake tasting, and the best part, it is on a day that Jeff can join us. He is off that day and I really wanted him to be able to taste and pick out what he wants on the his cake. He was glad about being able to go to this event, I mean who wouldn't like to taste cake and for free.

Mom, Mary, Jennifer and I came up with some fun, different ideas for reception decorations. Now the fun part is working on those details and seeing them all come into place. Mary, is just great a research and finding the finds, she did last night I can't wait to see how they all turn out. Thanks Mary!

The phone!

WOW...the phone is attached to my ear today. I feel like I have been calling all over the county today. I spoke with the church (First Methodist) here in Conroe. Made an appointment to see the wedding coordinator there. She wants to go over some of the guidelines with me. Who knew there were so many rules for the church. I had to read them twice to make sure I understood them all.

Then it was off to set the appointment with the florist. We are so lucky and blessed to have a friend, Diane Covey, doing the flowers. She is one of my mother's best friends and I am so happy she agreed to do the flowers for me. I know they will be so beautiful and amazing. She does a great job and I trust her so I don't have to worry about it at all.

Tomorrow, I have to call and set up a cake tasting, oh darn! I am going to make sure that Jeff gets to take part in this planning, so trying to schedule that when he is off and can be there. I really want him to decide on what he wants on the grooms cake, doesn't matter to me so I told him, your choice. (Maybe I should re-think that...hahaha).

It's beginning to look like a wedding

Well it is beginning to feel and look like a wedding is going to be taking place in the coming months. Yesterday, Mom, Jennifer, Mary and I all went out to April Sound (reception site) to look around. It had been a while since we were there. We picked out the other linens (chair covers, table runners, overlays) and then we decided on where things were going. That is going to be a interesting chore with about 200 there but it will be well worth it.

Today, Dad, Cindi and I ventured out to April Sound again so they could see the place, meet Debbie the events director and get the lay of the land. They seemed to really like it, the place is going to look great. With the deck and gazebo decorated people will really be able to have plenty of space.

After seeing chair covers, table linens, deciding where the buffet is going and so on...it is really starting to feel like a wedding! Oh my goodness...isn't it wonderful!

Father's Day

This Sunday was Father's Day and it was a great one. The weekend started out with Jeff coming over and us going shopping for him some clothes. As we all know I hate shopping...yea right! Then he and I went to the movies, a great way to spend a Saturday afternoon. We ran some more errands and finally made it back home later in the evening.

Sunday, Father's Day we had been invited over to my dad's house. He was going to bar-b-que, so let's just say I AM THERE! He and Cindi invited Jeff's parents over for dinner too. It was great, they drove from Huntsville and got to meet my dad and family. We chatted, laughed, and ate, boy did we eat. But the day went great. I was really happy to see my family and Jeff's getting along so great. Everyone seem to be having a good time, I certainly know that Jeff and I did.

Stress?

I think the stress of everything is starting to play a toll on me today. I am trying to plan the wedding, which I have to say is going great, think about moving and working on our new house. While trying to do this, Jeff and I are both very concerned about money, naturally. Neither of us has much of it money and of course that is top concern on our mind. To top it all off, we are going on vacation next month with my family to Tybee Island (Savannah), Georgia. Both of us are so excited and can't wait, we just wonder how we are going to make it until the wedding. I guess today I am just having a poor me moment. Tomorrow Mom, Mary and myself are going to April Sound to meet the new events director and check the place out again. It will be great to have Mary there, she is always such a great party planner and full of great ideas.

Coming together

Today Mom and I got a lot accomplished. We met with Dana, a very nice lady, who will be doing our photographs for all the festivities. With her package you get the engagement, bridal, and wedding/reception for one price. That was great...gives you a chance to get to know them and they you. Big Oak Photography will be our choice...I can't wait. Can't believe it is all coming together so easily, makes me nervous in a sense.

Another thing off the list was heading to the church. She and I went to the Methodist church in Conroe, where the wedding will be held. She was able to see some of her friends and I was able to turn in some paperwork they were needing for the ceremony. I met with the minister again, who is so nice and friendly, and can't wait to sit down and discuss the plans with us.

Overall, today was a great day, got those things done! Seems like it is still along way off but I know it will all be here before I know it....

My dreams coming true!

The past month has been one that I will never forget. I have been from one extreme emotion to another. Having to loose Barney and watching the heartache that his death has caused, ending school and saying goodbye to some pretty special students, and continuing on with wedding plans. I know without a doubt that Barney is still with my family everyday, watching over my Mom and loving her with all his heart. I am more amazed everyday by my mother's strength and courage. I know that I shouldn't be, she has always been an inspiration to me, but when you are faced to face with that spirit, it is a miracle to see.

On Monday, June 9th another dream came true. My sweet love Jeff, proposed to me. I knew he had the ring but how he was going to ask me I didn't know. I went to his house that evening after he got off work, as we were starting to eat, at what is going to be our kitchen table, he got down on one knee. He proceeded to tell me how lucky he was, what a blessing I was to him, and how he would be honored if I would become his wife. Of course my answer was yes but hearing him say those words and know with all my heart that he meant them and I felt the same was a dream coming true.

Summer vacation starts and weekend....

It has been a while since my last post, sorry. Finally the last week of school came and went. What a long one it was, the year went by fast but last week was the slowest one of all. But needless to say, the final day with kids arrived and of course me being me...I cried a little. Some of these kids I had been their teacher for both 7th and 8th grade History. I will miss them, they are sweet, good kids with a lot to offer the world. I think in that few minutes made me realize why I do what I do and how important it is to me. They made me feel like I had made a difference, even a small one, in their year and that is why I do it, to make them feel like they matter. When the saw me crying (a little now) they knew that they did matter to me and I will really miss them....I think if you are one of those teachers that never gets that feeling, you need to find another career.

Well then the weekend began with a trip to Rockport. Mom and I (aka Thelma and Louise, minus Brad Pitt and the cops) make the 3 hour drive to see Shannon's new place. It is great, a little 2 bedroom cottage not 20 yards from the water. It was so peaceful and just what my mom needed. She also had her last day on Friday, ever. It was a hard day for her on many levels. One saying goodbye to a career and school she loved. Two, leaving some of the best friends she has ever known and even though she will still see them it won't be the same. And three, it is bittersweet, she and Barney had so many plans for when she retired. Things they were going to do, places they were going to see...a whole new life. Now that he is gone, so is that dream. But like I told her and we all believe. He is right there with her, every step of the way, forever.

I am really going to be BRIDE!

As funny as it sounds it was not until Monday, May 26 that I realized I am really getting married. I know I have sent out the Save-the-Date cards to out of towners, booked the church and reception hall, but it was not until I tried on and bought my dress that I realized, OH MY GOD I AM THE BRIDE!

There is something very strange about trying on wedding dresses, like you are really part of a fairly tale and for me I kept waiting for someone to come in and say, "what are you doing, you don't belong here." The whole shopping trip was a surprise. I was spending my Memorial Day holiday with my Mom, Mary, and Caroll (from Vegas). We had met Jeff and Jenn out at Mom's new house, then went on to see theirs and grab some lunch. It was an all-around great day so far. I don't know who, Mary or Caroll, suggested we look at dresses on the way home. Mom and I both said "sure."

We stopped at David's Bridal, went in and registered and within an hour had found the dress I wanted. It is beautiful, I loved it from the moment I saw it. It is cream, some bead work, a train and full skirt. They only had two and one was my size! I was so happy.....of course, Mom, Mary, and Caroll all cried and took tons of pictures. I was so happy to get to be able to share that experience with them. Mom said automatically, "lets get it, price is right, size is right, etc....we have to." I was so stunned and so grateful. I think at that moment, standing there with this amazing dress on, a petticoat on, my mom and gang crying and a veil on my head is exactly when I looked at myself and thought, YOU ARE THE BRIDE and this is for REAL!!! I am so happy and can't believe that I have really found my one.

What a weekend!

The weekend started out great, Jeff and I took mom to dinner on Friday night. We went to PF Changs and had a great visit. She and Jeff are just crazy about each other which is go wonderful for me. He is so good and sweet with her, listening, chatting, and helping in anyway he can. I think after all that has happened she just needed to vent. I can only imagine why, hahaha! After we left her we went to register at Bed Bath and Beyond. What an experience that was, he and I both new to that one. We went through the store aisle by aisle looking at stuff, scanning, saying "I like this, I like that." After two hours we were both so tired, nothing was looking good and we wanted nothing.

Saturday rolled around and we decided (or I pushed and he went along with) to register at Target as well. That went much faster this time and we found somethings that we had really been looking for and some items we liked better. Then it was off to Huntsville and dinner with his folks. They are the sweetest people, who have welcomed me into their family with open arms, I am truly blessed to have them in my life as well. From there, it was to a party at the house of one of Jeff's friends, Wade. He is going to be in the wedding and a great guy to be around. It was a nice night but after a while Jeff and I needed to head home, we were tired and coming back to Conroe for the night.

Sunday arrived and Jeff was happy to be registering at "his store", Home Depot. We looked at grills, drills, and tools. I have no idea what half that stuff was but he was happy to be wondering around creating a wish list for gifts. From there it was off to the boat with my family. We love being on the boat and all thought of Barney and how much he loved it too. Jeff (brother) even said when it would not start, "oh that is just Barney up there playing around with us", that is very true. It started and we spent the day playing in the sun, laughing, and having a great time.

Asking God Why?

Well since my last post, our family has been turned upside down. On Monday, May 12, my step-father Barney Bolt was placed in the hospital. He had been having some trouble with his heart and breathing. We never dreamed that he would never be coming home. For whatever reason, God choose to take him home. After, suffering through four code blues, Barney left this us and joined those in heaven.

I have never been through such an event before, watching my mother beg God to not take him from her, seeing her on the floor praying with all her heart and soul for her soul mate to remain here and get better. I do believe that as long as I live I will continue to ask God why? Why did he take him, why couldn't the doctors find out what is wrong, why do his children have to go through loosing another parent, and why after all these years and finally finding happiness, did he have to break my mother's heart? I know that we aren't meant to always understand Gods ways, that he doesn't give us more than we can handle, and that we will survive, but WHY? I trust God and his plan, I believe with all my heart in soul in him, but I also know what I saw, how I felt, and watching your mother on the floor of a hospital hallway begging for him to live, isn't something I can never understand and I don't know if I am meant to.

Some would ask if it has weakened my faith, the answer is no. My faith is strong, I have been blessed so much in the past few months that that feeling will never go away. I found Jeff, my soul mate, my brother and Jennifer are having another baby, and I saw my mom happier than she has been in years. I know all of that is the work of God but I think part of me will always ask him why?

Rings, Babies, and Families

WHAT A WEEKEND!!! Well it is May 11 and this has been some Mother's Day weekend and I am not even a mom! First, it started off with going to pick out my engagement ring. It is going to be beautiful. My grandmother had given me the ring that she wore when she was married to my grandfather, Ralph Richardson (Gramps). I took that ring to the jeweler and after about an hour or so, Jeff and I found exactly what I had been looking for and I can't wait to see it. It will be one engagement band consisting of the large center stone and four smaller diamonds from my grandmother's ring. Then it will have two matching bands of five diamonds each to match. I said the ring was a perfect combination of Jeff and my grandfather.

We celebrated Mother's day twice, on Saturday night with Jeff's parents at Outback and then at my brother's house today for my mom and family. While there we found out they are expecting a baby! We are all so excited and can't wait for the new little one and her due date is, would you believe it, New Year's Eve!

I lost my heart forever

On April 26, Jeff and I attended a wedding, of a co-workers daughter, in Galveston so it was a drive for both of us. I was so excited to be going with him and that he would want to go all that way with me to a wedding for people he had never met. But I should have known that is Jeff...that is his nature.

The wedding was beautiful and the reception was a blast. The band played lots of wonderful songs but when they played "She's My Everything" by Brad Paisley and he sang to me in my ear and told me he loved me, I knew that I had lost my heart forever. We had been talking of marriage already and I knew I wanted to but I don't think it was until that night I realized just how much.

Later that next day, we made it official. He asked my father for his blessing to marry me, of course my dad said "yes" and November 8, 2008 was our chosen date!

Meeting our Families

Almost from the beginning we have been a couple. It is natural for us to be together and to spend time together with our families. That first weekend (March 18) we had been dating was also my Mom's birthday. Jeff met my family (brother, mom, grandma, etc) for dinner that night and immediately they loved him. I was so happy to see how well it all worked out. All I could do was just sit and say "thank you God for giving me this man and allowing me to experience this happiness."

That same weekend, I met Jeff's parents at their home in Huntsville. They are the sweetest people and so welcoming of me into their family. I could see immediately where Jeff gets his sense of humor and generous nature.

I will admit that I was nervous meeting mom and dad for the first time. But I think I was more nervous to meet his sister, being a sister myself, I know how protective I am over my brother and she is the same. After a few minutes though, I was put at ease and have to come realize I have made a friend for life in her.

March 10, 2008

On March 10, a Monday night, Jeff and I finally met for the first time. He came to my apartment, gave me a beautiful bracelet and took me eat at Pappadeaux. From the beginning I think we both felt we were friends who already knew each other we just hadn't seen each other in a while. The conversation at dinner was great, the best I had ever had on a first date. I knew that night that this was different, special, and true to me.

I had made that promise to myself to be honest with me when I met someone new. I tried to stay true to my personality, what I was looking for and what I wanted to my future. Jeff was the same way. He and I both had been hurt before and both knew what we "weren't" looking for anymore.

Honestly, friendship, laughter, and love are tops on my list and I had finally met someone who had those same ideals. I can honestly say I have never dated anyone who makes me laugh as much as Jeff.

The Turkey Man

Around the 1st or 2nd of March, I had gotten a "hi" on my personals page from a man named Jeffery, who had posted a picture taken with a turkey he had killed while hunting. Several of my friends immediately started calling him the Turkey Man. After some thought and reading his profile again, I said hello back.

On March 2, 2008 he and I started to chat and get to know each other better but only online first. From the beginning our conversations just seemed to flow so easily and natural. We would chat for hours and most of the time couldn't remember what we had talked about. I knew almost immediately though that I couldn't wait to talk to him again. He was one of the nicest, funniest, and most respectful men I had ever met.

Though our work schedules did not allow for us to talk until late in the evening we would still chat and chat for hours. We both felt almost right away that we couldn't wait to meet in person and that it would be soon.

Finding Me Again

Well I am new to blogging but decided to give it a try and document this wonderful ride I have been on lately in my life. This blog is actually going to start when I think I started to change...January 15, 2008. I had just suffered a break up, that at the time I was devestated to be going through. Now I know it was a true blessing in my life. I had realized I was tired of crying, tired of trying to please others, and decided it was either now or never for myself.

I put my profile on an online personals site and decided to see what was out there. Well I had a date or two but nothing just seemed to click. I was trying very hard to be honest with myself and anyone I might be meeting. I wanted to make sure they understood I was wanting to be married one day, have a family, the whole nine yards. If they weren't looking for that, well them pass me by.

On March 2, 2008 I started chatting with someone who would change my life forever and for the better.